EdRa

2012-01-23T21:53:00.001+08:00

haishh. these few days, i feel so stressed up. i left with 3 more days to one assignment deadline. but i dont even a quarter done. this is not because im lazy. but i dont even know how to do at all. all my friends only say dunnoe,but will end up with an A or B while me? ? I dunnoe.

Why is this happening? i thought by listening to my bro,it will help me. I always had this phrase "nevermind, no harm learning new things" in my head. But theres no point now. It looks like im the only one who is learning new things with a very slooooooow pace. I hate myself for this.. But isit to late? I dunooe. Feel like dropping. But i feel guilty towards brother. He asked me to join. I know he cares bout my future. And i did try. But im here suffering without him knowing. He buying me a laptop soon for a belated bday gift. As he knows i need a good laptop for.my course. But he doesnt know that im stressing here. Im scared to tell him. Ask a few opinions from friends and sisters. I scared if i ask my parents, i scared i may breakdown even before i start the topic to them.

Ps: ya allah, berilah lah aku petunjuk mu. Aku betul2 binggung.

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2012-01-18T15:26:00.001+08:00

Its already january 21012. 1 and a half more month to the end of my yr 1 of poly student. So far, what i like bout my poly life is less than 10%. First i dislike my course. Then secondly, not so much friends in poly. Third, sem2 module gave me a tremendous hard time! especially ITIPJ and IADEV. This two modules i dont understand a shit.

One thing i like is that i improved on my maths ((;

I just want this sem to finish off fast.

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2012-01-04T00:06:00.001+08:00

Ermm. So .. he appeared again . Is not his fault . he's Facebook . he has all the right. . But i just dont 't why.

Someone has been giving me motivational support. thanks Dann!! But actually I think I don't have the feeling of liking people anymore like how i used to like him. I think no more love love thingy in me. I will just let the love come by itself.

2012-01-02T22:27:00.001+08:00

Why ? Why had happened? Why now you appear? When I was down , when I was in hope for you , when i was i was in love with you , you didn't appear , you didn't online . Within that three years , I always wanted to see you everyday ,wanna talk / chat with you , wanna be close with you , but i didn't get the chance. Now when i told myself to really forget bout you , you appear in my life like on my news feed , in front of me . No. It was just weird . Its like last time you rarely update your status , i rarely see you with your friends . But now , its like every time I on Facebook , you will be the first that on my news feed . I got to find out that you do have a twitter. Why now ???
"Ya Allah , tolong tunjukkan ku jalan penyelesaian . Kenapa sekarang baru engkau menampilkan dia kepada ku setelah sekian lama. Setelah tiga tahun telah berlalu , Setelah aku memberitahu diriku yang bahawa aku tidak akan dapat menunggunya lagi . Berilah aku petunjuk jika betul aku harus menunggunya dan ini tanda tanda bahawa apa yang aku nantikan selama ini akan terkabul. Atau ini semua hanya kebetulan sebagai cabaran untuk melupakan nya??"

p/s: aku pasrah !!.

2012-01-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

So its already the second day of new year. 2011 has been a bad year for me . Not getting good results for O levels, didnt get into my dream course, didnt get to a wish from him on my birthday , make it short , nothing went right in 2011 for me . Sorry to say but that is the fact . I really hope that 2012 will be a great one for me . seriously i need it !!!

So in 2012 , i will make it clear that no matter what , i dont have any feeling for YOU any more. Final. ! (:
I have move on . No more F in my life except my best friend FIRDAUS . HAHA!! Not only that i want to make this year a memorable year by doing something different everyday. But what is it ? Not sure yet.

So just now watched this one drama. Its was touching and made me tear-ed a bit. There is this one scene a guy got a present and write a song for her(whom he had a crush on). That was what i always wanted. Actually once i almost got a present from someone , but something happened and everything just vanished . NAhh forget bout everything and start with a new book i guess. ((: Future awaits me .

2011-12-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

Saya happy hari ini sebab sudah dapat tahu name dyer. Hahaha. K random. This is my first time saw him at F1pit. After so long didnt saw him. I was about to forget him as he didnt show up ala macam putus harapan lah gitu. Haha

Tapi macam tiba tiba dyer muncul. Hahah. Cool. Thanks ifaa for the name. I was shocked when saw him standing by the cargo container. I was like ehh! is that really him? haha. I was attracted to him because of his face. Same dgn bong pelakon. Bkn "bong". Tapi as usual i tepuk sebelah tangan je lah. Sape lah aku?

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2011-12-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

I GIVE UP ON YOU!!! SERIOUSLY! YOU WOULDNT BE IN MY WISH ANYMORE . WOULDNT BE IN MY HEART. WOULDNT BE ANYWHERE AROUND ME !!!!!!

I HATE YOU !!! I HAVE WASTED MY TEARS ON YOU. MY PRECIOUS TEARS. I WONT CRY FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU WOULDNT CARE AT ALL RIGHT ?

Im proud of myself because i've waited for you for at least 3 years . and within that 3 yrs, 2 guys were rejected by me . I think if you see this , i guess you will say im dumb, stupid. But this shows that i am loyal .I dont give up easily on love. yes , last time i think im not ready , But now im matured and i know what is love . Thats why , when i love someone , i give all my love to the person . eventhough he didnt know. and the person ITS YOU!. But now , i guess i really have to move on . So yahh. Goodbye to you and my love towards you.

p/s: Thanks Allah for showing me that he has a twitter. I appreciate it alot .

2011-12-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

WWhy some people are not grateful with the opportunity given to them?? I always wanted that opportunity that can make confess my expression. im not those girls who can just say it just like that. Im scared of what will their impression on this fat girl who dont know how to look at the mirror. I pity myself because i always insult myself. If i can insult myself,why cant others too right? ? So i want those who have those opportunity not to waste them like. I scared you might regret it one day. Think bout it.

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2011-11-29T22:29:00.001+08:00

"Pengorbanan".

Apakah itu pergorbanan ?

Adakah pengorbanan membuat seseorang gembira?

Apa yang orang faham dengan maksud Pengorbanan?

Selalu seseorang akan berkorban untuk seseorang yang mereka kasihi , cintai , sayangi. Mereka sanggup korbankan cinta mereka untuk kegembiraan orang lain. Orang begini harus kita hormati kerana mereka sanggup berduka asal kan orang lain gembira. Bukan itu sahaja, orang begini susah untuk dicari, malah dalam 10 ,cuma satu aja yang akan bersikap begitu. Adakah anda orang itu? Ataupun saya? Ia memang senang disebutkan tetapi susah untuk membuatnya. Ia adalah kerana , ia memerlukan semangat yang kuat dan juga tabah . Setiap pengorbanan yang dilakukan amat berat sekali dan kadang kala susah hendak menerima kenyataan. Dalam drama "CutAmirah", watak Julita sanggup putuskan perkahwinannya dengan fauzi kerana dia tahu cinta fauzi terhadap mirah amat erat sekali . Dia korbankan hasrat keinginan untuk bersama fauzi. Pada episod yang akan datang pula , zakir pula korban kan cintanya terhadap amirah apabila mendapat tahu bahawa muz menyukai amirah. Walaupun duka dan hampa, muz tidak sampai hati untuk berkata tidak pada cinta adiknya terhadap amirah.

Andainya aku menghadapi situasi yang sama , adakah ku sanggup berkorban ?

p/s: dapat pengajaran daripada drama suria .(:

2011-11-29T07:57:00.001+08:00

So this morning mom are not at home. I think she went to market.

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2011-11-28T22:36:00.001+08:00

I still don't feel good about just now. Felt very guilty. Its like now my dad is blaming me too. I can sense that because , he acted a bit weird after the commotions I had with mom. Usually before he went to bed , he will sneak peek into my room and bro's too . But just now, he went straight to his room. DAMN!
2 people is angry with me.I know i wrong . but no need until 2 people condemn me. haishh..

2011-11-28T20:07:00.001+08:00

I think my words has made mom to be upset . Sorry ma , I don't mean to hurt you.. You got my intentions wrong. I didn't mean to insult you. I am proud that i have a mom that is good in IT . Nenek super canggih. Good in Internet , knows how to play Ipad , how to use phone and etc... And most IMPORTANTLY , I DON'T HAVE any INTENTION to compare you with anyone . NOBODY AT ALL !! SUMPAHH!! . Its wrong to give suggestion on watching kids show on suria for some self learning. ?? Kids show doesnt mean for kids only. She got hurt when i told to do so. I realised that whenenver she ask me how to spell certain words, i laughed. but thats DOESNT mean I LOOK DOWN on her !! .. Anyways , I am so so so so so sorry. NO matter what , YOU ARE MY BEST MOM in my world . NO one can replace you . ((:

2011-11-28T08:32:00.001+08:00

A new day, a new week. Hope everything goes well today (: so apparently, this week i will buzy with projects, outing, trainings, test. Today im so sleepy that i dont feel like going school. At school we will.be doing workshop where at home also can do. But i came for the sake of attendance. Hahah. Btw good morning everyone and have a nice week ahead!!

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2011-11-28T01:25:00.001+08:00

Tears usually make one stronger. But not me. Why everytime i think of something sad and happy? Why everytime i have negative thoughts instead of positive? Why do i some time cry when even a small real scolding from parent? Every tears dropped, it don't make me any stronger.

Not only that, just because of a small thing that can make me cry, it can turn to a lot of things. Whatever happened in the past are still fresh in my mind regardless how happy i was and how i try to forget all the bad memories. I feel weird with myself. I can'remember mostly all my subject but i can clearly remember what happen to me in the past. Tears always make me feels better for a moment. I love to cry alone where no one sees. Where i can let out all my emotions. I will try to control my tears whenever im with someone no mattee who - parents,friends,siblings even strangers. Those who have seen me cried before, it shows that i really cant control any longer. Or perharps i need someone to lend a ear to my problems:'(

P/s : sorry for being emoshit tonight.

Just a random letout.

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2011-11-22T22:08:00.001+08:00

Why always love story ends beautifully?? Or maybe from a stsrt to the end, a happy couple. With a happy family. Why only on tv and not reality? ?

1 out of a million girls who got a opportunity to have 3 guys after her in loving way. Show her their concern. Shower her with love.

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2011-11-07T18:13:00.001+08:00

Supposing i should be rehearsing on my slides . but here i am blogging. To tell the truth I HATE PRESENTATION!. Reasons are ,i have low self esteem / self - confidence. Not only that i feel that i dont have ability to talk to public. thats why im at loss now. .

2011-10-29T14:02:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I keep blogging about you. By the time you know that I'm always writing about you, you will be disgusted.If a person that you don't like keep waiting for you and blogging about you, one day you will be irritated,right ? But I can't do anything . Sorry if bothers you . But this is what I feel . No one can stop me from writing what I feel towards anyone. Tried to move on ,but .... My friend did ask me once why I don't want to be in a relationship. Is not that I don't want but there is no one that can take my heart. Have not found the so called "MR RIGHT!" . Sometime I look at my friends. Their luck is with them .. After a breakup, straight away got a another person in life. When I'm here still finding. HAHAHAHA. I find it funny sometime . Being single is actually good. No problem, no fighting , no jealousy. And you feel free. But sometime you need someone to be next to you when you are down. And that someone you really need sometime is not your family nor friends but a person people call "A boyfriend / A girlfriend". A special friend . A special friend that will be at your side when your friends and family are not free .

Its partly my fault too . Did not know how to handle relationship last time. Maybe I was too young and very scared if parents got to know that I'm in relationship. I felt wrong toward my ex. How I wish I can rewind time. But nevertheless, we are still friends. But now, if I'm a relationship, the first person I will tell my sister , follow by Umi 's side than my OWN parents. Its because I know that my parents are not that open minded as compared to my sister and Umi's side . Especially my father . We might joke about it. Sometime i got a warning . Haish. I don't know. Menyerah aje kepada Allah. Amin.

2011-10-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

These few weeks I have these weird feelings. I don't know why. Since that difficulty breathing thing happen. My friends were there and keep asking me not think negatively and make me calm. Whenever I'm with them , I won't think negative , because I'm having fun. Meaning I can't be alone doing nothing or even something . Confirm stupid things will play in my mind. I need someone to be there and talk and make not think too much . There is another way I could stop thinking bout that stuffs. Its by doing work and play games or sleep. Listening to songs do help sometimes.

2011-10-22T11:53:00.001+08:00

Hello peeps!!
Suddenly im not feeling well. I didnt play in the rain .Don't know. HAHAHA. So today maybe going to meet aishah , dann and fatin again. Not confirm yet . Let's see how .
Btw time flies fast. Its already been a week i started my semester 2. It was okay. Now im looking forward for a few modules, like Law and Ethics , Pillar of Life , Programming and maybe Maths.
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okay skip .

This song has been playing in my head since i don't know when :P

Chorus:

Aishiteru , aku cinta padamu,

Ku ingin kau tahu ,

Hanya kau lah yang satu .

Aishiteru , aku cinta padamu ,

Dan biar aku dan waktu ,

membuktikannya.

By Tujuh((:

2011-10-19T12:01:00.001+08:00

How i wish you would start a convo with me .. Im sorry if im still waiting for you and not moving on. I don't care what people say. Unless i found a new guy whos can make me fall in love like i fall in love with you , then i could move on. If you are ignoring me , nahh its okay. just want you to hope and help me pray for me to find a guy and move on without you. THANKS(:

2011-10-18T23:41:00.003+08:00

Shall update on my first day of school. It was pretty okay. lecture for four periods. love my 2 lecture. A new teacher for a new module. To me , he's cute . but not to my friends(girls of course). school was perfectly okay . till i got nothing to talk bout .

So today , i have kept thinking , why what i want i cant get my but why don't want its in front of me. ?people say , don't stop praying to god . He know what's the best for me . maybe he's just not for me. but this boy appeared . actually i know he has the feeling. i can see it through message . its too obvious. but i just don't have the feeling for you. i just treat you as a friend and brother to me . Not more than that.i hope you will understand. why can't you be him ? why he can't be you ?

i can lie to my friend that i have already forgotten bout you . But i can't lie to myself , my own feelings.

p/s: seriously , i miss chatting with you.

2011-10-17T21:43:00.002+08:00

YAY! Tomorrow is my first day of school in semester 2 . Another start of hell. Like seriously i dont like anything from that course . Except for maths. I dont want to blame him too much. Its partly my fault too . Agree to what he say. I dont feel good if i say no . If anything i complain about my choice of course, confirm he will condemn me rabak2 . Actually not that sure . But i have the feelings that he will do that . cnfrm bug me with question and nags. " see lah , i ask you not to choose that course" " this course wont get u big bucks in future." " why at first u want this course" All sort of stupid lines and question .Thats why stick to his opinion and just follow the flow joining IT COURSE. And now im suffering here. But i do thank him for what he had given me , help me . THANKS A LOT . seriously i do appreciate it a lot. cume sometimes i feel regretted listening to you by choosing the course. Im not close with my friends in poly . Felt left out . I know every day my routine, is come to school. do / listen to what i have to listen. then if have breaks, tried to join in their convo , after that if lessons again . then back home. SERIOUSLY NO POLY LIFE. IwaNt my secondary school life where my REAL FRIENDS ARE THERE to help me in school work . Share problems, jokes.Multi-racial . i know im not the girl who just barge in to any convo and start a topic. some of them wont like it. and maybe some of them will even have a bad impression. But i do agree , that they are nice , friendly , bonded. but i still feel awkard. i think i still need more time to adapt to the surrounding.

i didnt know why suddenly i want to let it out loud. Cant explain my situation cause im still in puzzled mode.

FYI , i did tear when i typing this junk !

2011-10-14T01:11:00.002+08:00

Now im active on my blog and TUMBLR!!. Yes . i just created a tumblr . HAHAHAAH. find it cool.

So anyway, school starting next week and im not prepared. Haiyah. regretted not working during the hols . bored with no income coming in. i will update this blog soon okay:D .

btw do follow me at my tumblr : http://lovespurpletoomuch.tumblr.com

2011-04-26T19:28:00.003+08:00

2011-04-24T20:28:00.002+08:00

PURPLE

2011-01-10T21:00:00.001+08:00

YAY ! I PASS MY O LEVELS!!

BUT I DONT HAVE THE MOOD TO CELEBRATE IT ALL !!

2010-12-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

Im soo sorrryyyyy...!!!

I think i have misjudge my father. I really didnt mean to.

From now on , i will try not to misjudge people before knowing the truth .

p/s: sorry

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2010-12-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

YES! The picture above describe the way i am now !! Stress with problems ! On finding jobs , family matters , bored at home , friends are working . I want a job as soon as possible . Im damn bored. Anyone know of a job that still vacant ?? Please do tell me .
So i've been rotting at home since last wednesday . Fatin got a job right after she quit her FAIRPRICE job . Ifaa could be getting her brother's job right after come back from her holidays .
HOLIDAYS~! I damn envy with those who had went to holidays . No matter far or near . Unlike my family . My father works all the time . Tkpayah balik sudah . I know hes out there earning money for my family . But , not until like this . To tell you the truth , i've not seen my father for the past few days . Yesterday he went back at around 2am and went to work at around 8am this morning . Im not sure what time will he be back home today. On last wed and thurs , i did saw him and chat with him and went out for awhile . But , i dont feel the close-ness between us anymore . Till when do he have to work until late at night ????????? I MISS MY OLD FATHER!. BLAME HIS FREAKING BOSS! Instead of thinking of him working so hard for us, i always thinks the negative side of my father .. I didnt know why im having this weird feelings. I didnt dare to let out my feelings to anyone especially my mother . I hope 2011 will be a better year for me and my family . And i hope no more negative thoughts about my father when hes working .amin

p/s: :'(
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2010-12-16T00:22:00.005+08:00

Yessa~
No more caps . No more apron . I quit that freaking job already. And now im finding a new one .
Free!!!
Currently listening to gerimis mengundang .
Just now went to meet my aunt from Brunei . She will be in Singapore for about 2 weeks . Went to slack at "Rasa-Rasa" . When i was on the way There 's a drama back home, i listened to Harapan at Ria . Suddenly , it reminds me of HIM. I felt like crying . Me myself didnt know why . OMG! I MISS HIM BADLY ! :'( There's a drama titled "DOTTIE" at Astro World. Its about a fat girl finding and achieving her dream career and Mr Right . Everytime i watched that drama , i would ask myself if i could be like her in few years time down the road. I would always day dream if i could ever be like her . Will i be able to have someone that i really love to accept for the way i am ?. Appearance , attitude , fussy-ness , childish-ness etc .Will i able to achieve my dream to go to poly and finish my studies so that could help my parents out with my Diploma ?But usually dramas are dramas . It just a make up story to entertain people out there whose watching the programmes. Those stories are fake . Just giving the girls /women/ladies out there to be confident eventhough they are obese. And im one of them. In TVs, it always shows a lead fat girl actress will always get a good-looking ,kind-hearted , slim guy to be their lead actor . HERO! . But i dont see this happening in reality . If there really have , its just a small , tiny % of it . Why do they need to do this ?Everyone just sees how happy am i . But they dont know , theres a lot of question running in my mind . Im always good at giving advices to people .However , i didnt heed my own advice nor the others when im having problems. Haish~
If anyone of you read this , just keep it to yourself . Dont ask me anything or tell me anything . Thank you .((((((:

p/s: sorry for being emotional.
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2010-12-04T21:43:00.004+08:00

Yes!! Today's training can be shown in the picture above*points upwards*.

I thought training would show how and what we are going to do but it was just talking sessions and brief introduction . Haiyah . However, it did make my day as i make two new friends . Yaya and atikah . They are friendly girls and we do get along . Ifaatin , yaya and me will be working in the same place while atikah will be at taman jurong . Tomorrow will be my first working day . I'll hope it will be okay. Actually , im pretty nervous about tomorrow. Me myself dunnoe why . Why am i scared ? Everthing will be just fine . Eventhough , the uniform is like !&!#$%^&^&* but i will do my very best in the job im given as long as it is reasonable :D.

Currently listening to Hetty Sarlene-Siapakah aku di Sisimu

First time i didnt think about you.
I wish everyday is like today .

So that i wont be hurt anymore by your feelings towards someone else.

I just wish someone out there will be able to replace you .

p/s: sad +happy =:)(

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2010-11-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

I tried and tried to move on with life in accepting the fact that i can no longer hope for .

However , the feelings kept asking me not to give up .

For what ?

Make my heart pain only .

I just cant make myself forgets you.

I know who i am .

A person with lack of confidence , low self esteem etc.

I just hope the quote above *points upward*will turn into reality and change my destiny of life.

Kk. Should stop with the emoshit.

Currently listening to awie's songs . Legend Siot !.

I have gotten a job . I hope this will help a little for my family financial .

This whole week i've helped my mom at shop. wee~

So what should i do tmr ? Go out ? Stay at home ?

Wanna do something fun , memorable , adventure . But i cant think of any .

Any suggestion ?

P/s: heart broken to many many many many many many many pieces .

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2010-11-18T00:13:00.003+08:00

At last im free to do anything. My exams are over and now looking for jobs . A lots of things had happened . Bad . Good . However , im just happy . Today is HARI RAYA HAJI . Didnt go anywhere . Just went to UMI's house . Slacked there . Went to a lots of places after Os . Like Happy people . So would really appreciate if someone would message me . Let my HP rings non-stop. HAHAHHAHAHAHHA

This phrase is refering to someone out there . Im just happy and it had really made my day with the few messages you sent me eventhough it might look a simple plain message to people out there and to you but to me ,it is different . I am just missing you . Bye .

p/s: haish

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2010-09-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

Whoah!!! My blog is damn dusty . OkaY . This month is the fasting month . And to me its the best because i get to eat my dendeng !! HAHA . So Prelims had began . Maths paper 2 was a killer , combined human was erghh. , mt was okay , Poa was sadded . In other words none of the paper made me happy . Up next is after the holidays . Maths paper 1 , and science. So yesterday after my history paper , i went home and siap2 to go to geylang with cliques . It was awesome as I GOT MY BURGER RAMLY AND DENDENG!!. sedap siot . WANNA HAVE MORE !. we took a lots of pictures .Especially with RIEZMAN KHUZAIMI. phewwweeeett!! fatin and i was like @#$%^^&. Few more days to raya . and this yr abg and kakak are coming back !! Jyeah . 1 whole family is in singapore lah seyy. gonna meet them up somewhere to buy food then come to my home to surprise my mom and dad. SHH . secret ! . Dont let anyone know especially my parents . Clean my room just now ! I loike . Da bersih tao!. Thanks to me for being a rajin and kind girl who decide to clean up her room rather than sleep . HEHE.

p/s: i kinda miss him .
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2010-08-11T17:07:00.003+08:00

9 august was totally awesomexz! . I did really enjoy my day eventhough something happened when i reached home. HAHA. So we met at arnd 3 plus . Then meet fiq at bukit batok and head to marina . Reached there met nano . After that we went to have our lunch at popeye near Singapore Flyer . We took loads of photos . Slack and played some games to kill time before heading up to the bridge for the fireworks . At around 6 plus , went up there and waited for the fireworks. heheheh . Polaroid , digital cameras went snap snap snap . The night light was the best ! FIREWORKS WERE SUPERB . I didnt regret for this yr NDP 's fireworks .
Then we slack behind suntec city for about an hour plus then i went off . Reached home around 11 plus . i wished that day wasnt over . :))

p/s: haish .
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2010-08-08T15:18:00.002+08:00

I know my blog had been a dust for awhile . Im here to clean it up and put new stories into it.
So , last friday , it was the celebration of National Day. All the sec 4 and 5 when to Marina Barrage . We had a picnic with our classmates. It was damn FUN . With the capital F. To kill the time , my class and i played a game called CHICKEN. hahaha . luckily i didnt get forfiet.HAHAHA
After that we went back to school . The Few handful of us slacked at school till 12pm. Then we went to westmall to kill time before meeting the rest of the boys to watch SALT ! We played arcade and took new prints . ^___^.

Btw to tell you guys !! SALT was totally awesome mann. Menyesal tak tengok .

After the movie, at first we decide to watch opening of hari raya lights at Geylang . But then , many of us were actually lazy and some couldnt . So we ended up going to bowling. To tell the truth , that game was a bad one . I was having a bad stomachache and ended up not played very well . HAHAHA... To end the beautiful day , we make bazil do something ^__^(evil laughter)
Then this coming monday , we are going to celebrate NATIONAL DAY by enjoying the fireworks at night. Can't wait . Seeya :))

p/s: wisht that he was there with us .
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2010-07-28T16:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST , DANN!!:DD

Wish u aLL the beSt :D

p/s: will blog a proper update soon . :D

blogging@1629hrs.

2010-07-19T22:17:00.003+08:00

TODAY WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY EVER !

BUT THEN ,

IT TURNED TO SADNESS WHEN I SAW THAT.

P/S:I REALLY LIKE YOU LAH . PLEASE KNOW IT !!
BLOGGING@2219HRS.

2010-07-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

I Do miss you every night and day .But u didnt know . I cant force u and i cant force myself to stop loving you. Its been a year .Im just hoping that i will not have to wait again .wishing my waiting will end soon.

So its been 3 weeks of schools. My malay orals are done . Up next is my listening comprehension . After this i really need to focus on my subjects really bad . I really wish to go to my dream course- Early Childhood .

2010-07-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

Today is the 8th of july . The start of applying DPA . What should i do ? Should i try ? Can i get through? How am i supposed to answer every question they asked when i get the place?
Lots of question running through my mind . What am i supposed to do ?
I am aware that prelim is just 8 more weeks . I will start my revision soon . So that i will get better grades . :D I will rarely use the computer as i want to concentrate more on study .
* sorry for the random post .

p/s: miss O
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2010-07-03T21:29:00.002+08:00

Supposingly , i should update my blog on the 1st of july . As it were aniq, nicholas and mine birthday. Well nevermind. So on my birthday , thanks to all my besties for the mini celebration . It was awesome . I appreciate all things u gave and made for me . :)) lovee u all many many .
But on the same date , now i do hate that date eventhough its my bornday . HATE IT much . Dont wish to have that date on my calendar anymore..

p/s: he didnt wished. :((
blogging@2133hrs.

2010-06-28T17:47:00.007+08:00

Its just a plain monday today .
Today the school had reopened and its the old same thing again. Worksheets and practical . Now mock exams are added to our time table . But seriously speaking , Im IN LOVE with Maths PAPER 1. Its makes my brain functioning . HAHA . But I dont LOVE doing MATHS PAPER 2. LeCeh u know. So my MOnday starting from today will be packed with Sci(phy & chem) remedial and practical . But its fun doin experiments . Its help us not to feel sleepy .And after school had to wait for muy Brother to come back home .I was sitting outside the house for about an hour . People will think im crazy sitting alone infront of ur house reading a newspaper.
Yes 3 more days to it . Jyeah ..

p/s: miss N.
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2010-06-25T17:35:00.003+08:00

Ima not supposed to love you
Ima not supposed to care
Ima not supposed to live my life
Wishing you were there
Ima not supposed to wonder
Where you are or what you do
Ima sorry. i cannot help myself
cause ima in love with you!

Pheww !! I had just finished cleaning the house and changing my blog skins . See , i have improve my blog . Took quite sometime to find for a perfect skin , but i did still manage .

So 3 more days to school and i am not looking forward for it . Its goin to be a new term . Meaning new beginning . Need to focus for approximately 2 months for Prelim and O levels.

And after that i will be free . So i cant play much now . keep for the later part of the year.

Homeworks are done except for POA. :(

I wont be using the comp for quite sometimes. UNLESS , its needed or im bored . HAHA

Till here now . Chiaooo~

p/s: still love G ,

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2010-06-21T00:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY mischeivous brother .

MOHAMMAD SHAFIZAM BIN MOHD SHAH !

Just wanna wish him all the best and . He is a lucky boy . I just wish that he will change his attitudes . And i'll be greatful :DDDD

p/s: hope for someone to msg :D

p/s: waiting for someone .

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2010-06-17T12:03:00.002+08:00

Today, there's a malay dance outing. I hope its not raining later. For now , it looks that the sun is shinning brightly. I hope it will be going to be fun ..

p/s: i wish u would be here.
blogging@1231hrs.

2010-06-13T23:27:00.002+08:00

Cool or WhAt?! * pointing upwards *

I want shoes like those . Wee~I'm in love with this hawt guy plus the shoe he's wearing . * melts*

2 and half weeks have gone and i just had my combine humans and one set of maths homework DONE! the rest of it , is still in my bag . not been touch yet. HAHA. So this hols was pretty okay . Did went out with friends . Planned to watch movie FAILED but Bowling had made my DAY . Sat and sun are fully booked . Help out at Mom's stall . There 's salary. Im so lovin it . ^_____^ .

Met old friend . She's changed a lot . Miss her damn much and alep too !! k . stop here for now.

p/s : i cant believe it when it revealed the answer. OMG!

blogging@2349hrs.

2010-06-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

Whoa . Time flies fast . Its already the 2nd last day of HELP 4 . yipee. Can sleep late , wake up late . But then , there will be tonnes of homeworks for the holidays . I hate it . But what can i do ? Its all for revision before i sits for O levels in October / November. Tmr is the last day of school . So starting of next week , im goin out on a certain day. and it means that my money is going out too!! Oh no!! Mana mau cari duit ?? Nevermind. As long it will be fun , i dont care. Weee~~

okay stop here for now . continue next episod * lame*

p/s: holidays

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2010-06-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

So . My mother tongue O level are almost over. Done with written papers. Left with oral and listening . The paper was pretty okay . Hate paper 2. It was tricky . But then i have tried my very very best. Now we 'll just have to wait and see for myself how i have done it . The past few days had been fun for me . I guess. I will start on Friday .

On friday , It was a public holiday. Aishah , Taufiq , Dann , Fir , Fatin , Bazil , Ifaa , Ros and Me decided to go a visit Ckg Zu. She had a small operation on her leg. So we met each other arnd 3pm . Went to LOT 1 to buy something for Ckg Zu. The best part was that all of us took the wrong bus . 307 instead of 302. So we took a long bus ride and went back to CCK to change bus . After we reached , we were all karaoke -ing happily . Till bout 8pm , we went back home. During taking the lift down from Ckg's hse , Ros decided to be smart and jammed the lift . Everyone was panic and start to go out of the lift when it reached at Level 2 . aishah , taufiq and me were the ones who were still in the lift and we kept on laughing bout the incident.

On sat and sun , I didnt go anywhere . Help out at my Mom's shop . After that went home and rest . My weekends were pretty boring actually .

Haish. Now the exams are over , i could think bout him . Whe will the time come ? One by One knew about it . When will he ever know bout this? Oh perhaps he knew already and thats why didnt reply me when i chat with him on MSN the other day . WTH??!!! If you knew it , please im begging you to tell me in person , F. Dont make me feel awkward. HAISH.

p/s: thinking.

blogging@1834hrs.

2010-05-24T21:41:00.003+08:00

Memandangkan peperiksaan GCE O Bahasa Melayu akan ku duduki tidak lama lagi , aku bercadang untuk menulis dalam bahasa melayu . Genap 7 hari lagi untuk peperiksaanku . Perasaan takut dan gerun menyelubungi diriku . Keyakinan aku mula turun kerana takut soalan apakah yang bakal ditanyakan kepadaku .Sudah dua hari sekolah ku mengadakan "intensf mother tongue" . Aku harap selepas ini , aku akan lebih yakin untuk menjawab kesemua soalan yang akan diberi nanti . Aku ingin sekali mendapat sekurang2nya A2 supaya aku tidak perlu bimbang lagi tentang melayu pada masa akan datang . Alhamdulilah 5 subjek aku lulus dalam peperiksaan pertengahan tahun. Aku rasa aku berhenti di sini sahaja . Tidak tahu apa lagi hendak ditulis.

p/s: im hoping for the wish to come true.
blogging@2201hrs.

2010-05-23T18:13:00.003+08:00

Sein ein Jahr gewesen, das ich mich entscheide, dieses Gefühl von Ihnen zu halten. Aber vor kurzem, habe ich mein selbst gebeten. Bis, wenn ich tue, dieses als Geheimnis halten müssen Sie. Es ist noch ein Geheimnis, solange ER nicht noch weiß. Obwohl einige meiner nahen Freunde kannten es bereits haben. Ich tat nicht selbst warum i, das noch ihn wartet und gerade sich nicht an bewegt. Ich frage gerade den ein Tag ab, den er meine Liebe kennt und annimmt. Aber einmal fühlte mich ich, dass es etwas verkehrt gibt. Meine Freunde versuchten zu helfen. und ich mag und schätze es so sehr. Sie gaben nicht auf, wenn sie mir halfen, anstatt, das sie halten, moralische Unterstützung und Rat zu geben.Was mich anbetrifft, ich aufgebe nie, obwohl mich manchmal ich fragte, ob ich noch die Wahrscheinlichkeit habe, mit ihm zu sein. Ich hoffe, dass alles mein gewünscht und Gebete zutreffend sehr sehr bald kommen.

P/s: haish
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2010-05-19T20:53:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAH! I can't stop laughing when i heard that F. loves listening to K-pop .

Btw i have gotten back some papers and it was such a disappointment. Haish . Science got E8 . How great is that ?? Then there is a video on Sandara park vs Lee minho . It was fun and superb . The headphone was damn nice but does it have other colours other than pink?! I wanna get that soon . Okay . I 'll stop now . Wanna to listen to mimpi indah again . HAHA.

p/s: Laughing my ass out .!

blogging@2101hrs.

2010-05-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

So , Exams are finally over and are the time for the results . Im not prepared for this and i really wish that i can pass all the subjects . I have not taken my English oral yet. and this make me even more nervous bout my results. Erghh..
Drop the subject, lets move on to the activites that had been done the past few days .
On Thurs , we went to Sakura for lunch and then headed to Jurong Point to window shopping and headed to McD for a drink. Took a lots of pictures and it had been uploaded in Facebook.

On Friday , I had only One paper which is Mother Tongue Paper 3. After that went to fir 's block to see his cute rabbits . The rabbits are more cuter than the owner . HAHAH (no offence) . After that , i went home to get changed and meet Umi and Lot 1 . Ihad my BRUNCH at Food Culture . Up next , headed to my mom 's shop. It was its first day . Pretty okay lah the business.

On Sat and Sun , Nothing much . I helped out at mom's shop . It was a buzy weekend for me .
after that , went cycleing with ros and dann. we cycled to lot 1. It was raining and we decided to chillex and Lot 1 and wait for the rain to stop . Met Aniq , Bazil , Firdaus and Izzudin. we went to McD to grab a bite. and after the three of us decide to cycle back. Unfortunately , it was still raining . But we just played in the rain. I fell cause i can feel my leg. It was numb . But overall it was totally fun . Want to cycle again mann. At midnight listen to ''Mimpi Indah ". It's a song which shows what im experiencing now . I fell IN LOVE with this song .

Then today , went to mom's shop to eat breakfast . Met umi . Today is my parents 17th anniversary. We bought a small cake . Celebrate for awhile and headed to west mall to watch Niyang Rapik at cinema . It was awesome . The actors were so handsome especially Awal Shaari and Kamal Adli . Fuhh . F. pon kalah arh . I wanna watched it again. After that went Lot 1 again with umi's family . Had dinner and then shop for things and headed back home.

p/s: Bila ku pejam mata ... dirimu yang menjelma.
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2010-05-12T14:06:00.002+08:00

Fuhh !! At last . Exams going to be over soon . Tomorrrow is the last two papers before we can have a little break. Friday is just a listening comprehension so no need to worry much. So this period time of exam . I have been sleeping late to revise and end up with a blank mind when look at the papers. Maths paper 2 was dam difficult for me . I scared that i would get a very low marks . Social studies and History was pretty okay for me . POA was doable but there is a lot of careless mistake i guess. haish .. Wth Era. Just now was Chem paper and Maths paper 1 . Both of them were pretty okay . just that there is not enough time for maths and the ques are tricky for chem paper. Tomorrow will be physic and physic/chem (multiple chioce ques) . Will be revising later till late night again. Nevermind , its for my own good .

Btw this friday is my mom's opening for her food stall at Bukit Batok . Blk 150 . She prefer having a small business rather than sitting at home alone . Let her be . Im happy for her in everything she do except for her nagging. HAHA. So i guess i'll be helping her at her stall sometimes . :D see how good am i as her child to help her mom . HAHA. Prasan aje .

p/s: When the time will come?
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2010-04-29T21:39:00.003+08:00

Firstly , i wanna warned u guys that if you dont like to read the jiwang2 kind of post, u may just leave.Coz im about to write that type of post .

Its has been a year that i started to like you . It all started when we are in sec 4Na. You were there , where i could see you , every mother tongue lessons. Then during the June holidays ,i miss your jokes and smile. But u did entertained me on the 3rd june. I will not forget that date as it the night that u make me smile widely in my sleep. Then, it was after the september holidays that i start to suffer. Hardly get to talk to you. First time you cut ur hair. Damn handsome . Honestly. When we get our N level results, i was sad that u didnt get to Sec 5. I had miss my golden chance of meeting you everyday like i used to do last few yrs. This year i have missed a lot of chance of meeting you . Envy those who tell me that they saw you. Around this year , there 's about 10 people that know that i like you. Im not making things big . but i just think they should know as they are my good friends where can and will help in solving problems right.?

I just hope that one day i will be able to face the fact . i know if i tell you now that i like you , you will reject as we dont know each other well and you want to be single first . My friends kept asking me to make the first move. But then its actually for me to do it. I just cant stop thinking bout you every now and then. I like you not because of ur looks but ur personality.u caring.friendly. Before i stop, i just wanna say that no matter what , I WILL STILL LOVE YOU, Mohammad F. No one can replace u in my heart.

p/s: this are all the bottom of my heart.

blogging@2159hrs.

2010-04-23T22:16:00.002+08:00

THANKS TO THE PERFORMANCE UNDER THE STARS!

So today we had our very first performance under the stars. It was to show all the talent that our friends have and the did a really good job . Well Done guys.:D They have been practicising for about 2 to 3 times just for this . The finale was the best with some the student combined together and dance to make the night a even better one. But in this very day , i wanna say thank you to myra . Because of her , i get to see him. Alhamdulilah. Amin. Aku harap ini baru permulaan dan bukan yg terakhir. So i guess i stop for now . Tomorrow i will be having a group study with friends at McD gombak. Exam are getting nearer and nearer. Left 12 more days .

p/s: I admit i was scared to take picture with him.
blogging@2224hrs.

2010-04-18T12:42:00.002+08:00

whoah!!!! I cant believe this mann .. i just got to know about the accident which involved Achik Spin!! Innalilahiwainnalilahirojiun.
I used to like him and i remember all his songs and now ..............................
i didnt believed it at the first place .
i quickly surf the net and found this link : http://satusingapura.com/latest-news/singer-achik-spin-dies-in-crash.html.
I just hope his roh will rest in peace and dirahmati allah. Amin.

blogging@1251hrs

2010-04-18T12:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAT TO KAK LINA !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAZLI !

Happy birthday to all april peeposs:DD

wish u aLL the best ..;)

p/s: i will not forget it "crush":D

blogging@1234hrs

2010-04-08T21:41:00.002+08:00

Its been a month i guess that i didnt post anitink. So here goes ...
Tuesday ~
I went skool alone again . Had fun doin maths . Later that day , i have a malay oral.Damn! I screwed up and start talking crap .Surely will get LOw marks for it . At night pulak , when i was chatting with sis ,bro and friend ,there a guy who start to chat with me . we chat for a minute and he asked to exchanged num . At first, i dont want to giv as its stranger Mann!! but i don know why the stupidity side of me was controlling my hands and go give the num to him . . i had miserable day chatting with him. .
Wednesday~
CCA was pretty okay . .slack a lot. didnt take picture actually . . haha. .
after that went home and at night after homeworks are done , went to uncle's house and chill . .
till 11 plus pm.
Thursday~
supposed to have physic supp , but it was cancelled due to something. Continuing this boy story . then i told him that i dont wanna contact him again as i dont feel comfortable but he just barely understand what i told him.. He wants reason(s) .. I gave him .. but he still insist of giving a reason .. how many reason should i give ?? he Just cant understand the phrase " I DONT WANNA TO CONT THIS FRIENDSHIP ANYMORE"!! Just hope he will not bother me again . thank you . .
Btw tmr will be having cca and maths test . . going off soon to study .. tata.:D

p/s: there's only one person in my heart now. F is the intial. and no one else .
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2010-03-27T13:29:00.002+08:00

So fast time flies. Cant believe this mann.. Nxt month , there are too many things will happen. Malay dance , Orals , Class Tests , Supplementary . haish . . Fully packed mann . . So nxt week on thurs , our school will be having cross country . why must it be cross country and not sports day ?? It will be held at chinese garden . Then on fri , is a public holidays . . Surely there will be tonnes of homeworks. haiyah.. I cant believe it when i checked the my schedule , there's only 7 weeks left to Mid-Year Examination. . Arghh!!

2010-03-18T12:05:00.006+08:00

So just came back from school. Was totally sleepy and tired during class. But indeed sweets that Mr Chia gave was making me awake. hehehe.. So i have all my homeworks and projects i guessed. Its time to enjoy the last few days before reopening school.
This march holiday was pretty okay.But its still boring as there were no activities or plans. Except for tmr. Going out to eat at "Seoul Garden Restaurant" .
Here is something that i kept asking myself:

"Everyday i keep thinking bout u without fail. Was hoping really hard to see
u . Talk to u. When can all that happen? When can i be frank with u ? Until
when should i hold onto the secret and keep it to me ? When could i tell u
that i like u ?"

I just hope that one day , i will be free from all question when all this question are answered. :(

But then , i found out that the character of girl he wants ,mostly not found on me . :'(

When i get to know this, my heart shattered .

Why i am always given this fate?

Whenever i like a person, there must be a obstacle that i nid to face.

I dont tink i have high chance of becoming his GF.)':

p/s: ~~waiting.~~crying

blogging@1237hrs.

2010-03-08T22:02:00.003+08:00

Currently listening to Dugaan dari Illahi.

So today its monday . notink much at skool . Help ros out till 6pm . Then this coming wed to fri will be a free lessons . And canteen will be ours only . No sec 1, 2 and 3. whoah!!
But there will be effective studies which i bet will be boring. Nvrm . Lets wait and see. cant wait for march holidays to come eventhough we going to have homeworks and supp class on that week . haish . Nvrm , its all for Our O's and i hope i will achieve good grades.
Ouhkk . . i really have notink to talk about . . sorry for this random post. i really have no mood to talk nor type this very moment. Just fought with someone . Dont talk to me just because i didnt want to webcam with the PERSON. !
erghh!! I dont have the mood and lazy to pujok arh.
soorry if i didnt being friendly with u. I just DONT have the bloody MOOD!
Hope the fighting wont last long.

p/s: get the green light to msg Bong !
blogging@2211hrs.

2010-03-02T18:44:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU BADLY !! WHEN COULD I SAY THOSE

THREE WORDS TO YOU ?!!!

MOHAMMAD F.

P/S: THIS IS THE TRUTH.

BLOGGING@1900HRS.

2010-02-21T20:34:00.002+08:00

Erm .. Its sunday today. Why do weekend need to be short . I dont really feel that its weekend to spent time with family . But to spent time studying , homeworks , and etc. Damn.!
So nxt friday will be the start of common test. Better study hard for a start. haish. I dont really have the confidence of passing. haish . i'll will not use the comp for the rest of nxt week i guess. Study Study Study!!!! Arghh!!

p/s: im getting fatter each day . damn.
blogging@2040hrs.

2010-02-15T17:28:00.002+08:00

I know that i have not been updating my blog.. But who cares ? perharps aishah and ros the only twos who read my blog.
So last sat i had a bbq with the whole of my family and relatives( father plus and mother combined together) whoah.. it was a blast. there was a lot of foods. and we really had a great time together. slept around 3.30 pm. and woke up arnd 7 plus. On sun night went to town area to see the CNY lights. damn nice. after that went to habib at 11pm.
today , sent my uncle to kranji .. Then whole of today , we didnt where to go. NO plans.
haish. Skool s reopening soon.. haish school hols are short. Common test are coming. better start on my revision soon.

p/s: he didnt reply me. :'((
blogging@1736hrs

2010-02-04T21:27:00.003+08:00

What makes me like you? What so special bout you till i like you? When did i start loving you? When will i tell you that I LOVE YOU? Why am i so useless and afraid of confessing? Why am i so stupid not to tell him?

These questions cant be answer by and i don't know why. If i want him , i should be confidence and brave , but i just can't . My friends have been telling me to confess before its too late , but i just don't have the courage to do that simple thing.

Im not myself period after malay till now . Maybe im thinking , maybe im mad at someone , maybe just don't have the mood to talk . Thats aLL.. No mood to do homework . Mybe no mood to watch BOng ! i would want to ask his close friend about him , but then scared they will think differently.

Why am i be such a good- for- nothing girl where she couldn't do anything that she wants. Where are her confidence ? Easy to ask people to be confident but not herself!!! i hate it mann..

p/s : really wish to see Mohammad F.
blogging@2137hrs.

2010-01-31T22:31:00.004+08:00

Yesterday , i went to my abg 's chalet . it was at NSRCC. was damn fun with kids around. It was my two nephews birthday. the theme was BEN 10. whoah.. green , black and white everywhere. . HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF U!!
then later at night , went to another bbq . . at cdans lah plak. . hangout till 12 plus.. haish .. one day had gone just like that. . So today woke up t 1.31pm ( to be exact) haha.. so late right ?? hahaha so went lepak-ing with aishah and dann . . chit chat here chit chat there .. and went home. night we went out for dinner. .saw dann again with family. . LOLs. tomorrow start another week of school . im getting tired of school mann.. (sorry for the random post)

p/s: try to stop thinking but i just cant.
blogging@2241hrs

2010-01-24T16:34:00.003+08:00

So yesterday was damn fun mann. It supposed to be our saturday - study - at - mac -day as what aishah says. We meet each other at McD around 3pm. Then we slacked more than studying . Ani joined in at around 3 plus . We ate , laughing , aishah was searching songs on my lappy . At around 5 plus when we get so bored , i decided to play with my webcam . And start from there, we make the place so chaotic. Its like only US who are making so much noise . ( mesti orang kat sane bingit jek ) hahah . . Then Fir decide to call aniq to join us . . As for dann , she needs to go home early as she need to go out . Before she went , we managed to snapped some photos first. .

Around 7 plus , aniq reached and we stopped using laptop and wondering we should get some serious studying . But then , we get hyper again when we start talking . then i on my laptop again . . And guess what ? we took more photos and even videos . . .

Then at around 7.45pm , we decided to take some interesting videos at the maze . . we hanged out till 9.3opm. aishah, fir and aniq went home first. as For ros, ani and me , we hanged out till 10 plus. I meet my parents arond 10.30pm and we went to take sometink from my aunt house and all of us headed to aiman cafe .. we reached home around 12 plus in the morning. . .WHat great Saturday I HAD!.

p/s:i admit i still love F.

blogging@1705hrs.

2010-01-21T22:07:00.004+08:00

E for Era F for .......

Its has been a long time since the last post. Sorry bout that peppoos. So this week has been okay. Nothing much exciting had happened this week. Except for That particular Tues. Was damn HAPPY seyy. ^^ .My wish had fulfilled . But i really wish that we would meet again . Miss him so much lah Oik. So its finally Dagu has agree with the CIP committee . to Make a booth On V Day . Going to start work very soon , right AISHAH?!

P/s: Cant stop thinking about him for a day.

blogging@2213hrs.

Why are u SO Stupid , era?

2010-01-10T13:10:00.005+08:00

Currently listening to dugaan dari illahi.

Its already the end of the first week. There a lots things that had happened this whole week. Homework. Revision. No books. I have also went to 3 polys this week. Ngee Ann poly , Republic poly and Singapore poly. Goodies bags!!! hahaha

Why i didnt tell the truth ?!
Why am i born to be so shy?!
Really hate that feeling mann.

P/s: haish
blogging@1319hrs.

2010-01-09T23:56:00.003+08:00

I MISS HIM DAMN LOT MANN!!!

wish he was here.

p/s: CRIED

blogging@ooo4hrs

2010-01-04T20:42:00.003+08:00

So today is the first day of school . It was bored as we did nothing compared to last year's first day of school . Today was just sitting in class and assemble at hall for talks . . . Oh my . . First day of school had already made me sleepy. . . So my FORM TEACHER is Mr Chin . As for this year my class , there isn't any co-form . . Prettty missed my juniors and friends . . So tomorrow , need to stay back and help out with malay dance.
So perharps , if im not buzy or lazy , i will try my best to update my blog. . . :DD

p/s : Thanks dann^^ for telling ..Wee!! So happy. . .
blogging@2047hrs.

2009-12-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

WOHHOO!!! SEZAIRIE WIN!!
kk stop. today , i mean the whole day, was buzy helping out at Aishah's sister wedding. It was tiring yet happy.Funny occasion happened.. First was okay . But then when came to the ending part, tu lah yang paling klakar. aishah cuzz, asked me and rossy's name.. adr org nk kenalan.. tapi too bad kat dorg ..dpt tawu name aje.. Num tk dpt.. haha..
but THAT guy looks like F + BONG= ehem ehem.^^

But to me , if he wants to make friends ,okay,i dont mind. But more to friends , tu adr problem sikit. my heart still close for Fa___. Give me time to open up for u. So , lau dyer mintak num skali lagi , tau lah ape jawapan aku eyh.. . . Kawan biar seribu , cinta biar satu!!!
hahaha..
TAPI SERIOUS ARH. MUKE DYER MCM APE YG AKU KATEKAN KAT ATAS. HEHE

p/s: i still loves mohammad F.<3
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Dugaan Dari Illahi

2009-12-24T00:32:00.005+08:00

so just get back from 4A3 bbq . was a hell fun at there. celebrated Zhi Ming 's birthday. took alots of photos .. Mr teo joined us too..

I was Fb-ing. when i browsed HIS profile , his cuzz i guessed , upload a video of him singing with friends. i heard his voice. i just cant take it. my tears dropped. seriously. i cant take it when he sang that song. what a nice voice he got there. i just keep repeating the video agai and again. How i wished he sang this song for me. haish. )":

Okay this is from the bottom of my heart:

When i first heard him sang, i could feel
something. I felt that he sang the song with all his hearts. I mean he was like
letting out all his love feelings towards someone just by singing. And of
COURSE, that person wouldn't be me , right F? i just can sensed it .
seriously people. This kind of thing, i wouldn't joke about.

Ya Allah, bila lah boleh aku bilangnya bahawa aku sangat mencintainya,???

p/s: Mohammad F, pls guess my feelings for you.
blogging@0043hrs.

2009-12-19T23:37:00.004+08:00

Lirik lagu yang bersesuaian dengan situasi yang ku hadapi sekarang.

"Dia Insan Pertama Yang Bertahta
Dia Insan Pertama Yang ku Cinta
Dia Pernah Membuat ku Bahagia"

Inilah ayat -ayat tentang perasaan aku terhadap si F. Namun , apa ke daya untukku bersamanya . Aku cuma mampu berdiam diri dan pendam rasa cinta ini di hatiku buat selamanya .

" Ku petik gitar akustik ini

dengan harapan dia mendengar

melodi indah yang ku cipta

hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya"

Aku menulis ibarat memetik gitar untuk luahkan segala rasa yang ku pendam di sebuah buku kecil . Cuma denga cara ini sahaja ku dapat luahkan selain daripada memberitahunya .Ku takut dia tidak boleh menerimaku sebab sukakan perempuan lain .

"Dan biarkan aku padamu

Menyimpan sejuta harapan aku padamu

takkan berhenti

sampai nanti ku mati"

p/s: maaf jika aku jiwang hari ini.)):

blogging@2356hrs.

2009-12-18T23:52:00.004+08:00

Firstly, i wanna wish RosLiyanA a very HaPPy birhtday.
Okay, today was the released of the N levels result. Jyeah!! I did made it to sec 5 with flying colours. 13points beb. hees. pity to those who need to be retain. I hope u wiLL do beTTer nxt time. But i was haPPy and sad at the same time. HaPPy coz get gOOd results and get to celebrate ros's birthday .But sad thing is that HE DIDNT GET TO SEC 5. he was posted to ITE.
sad sia. reaLLy wish he was promoted. Haish. )':
Okay once again Happy birthday ros .. Sorry if my presents wasnt too good for you.((:

p/s: i still like him no matter wad. mohammad F.
blogging@2359

2009-12-15T13:52:00.002+08:00

It had been four years im stuck at hiLLgrove secondary schooL. It looks like it just yesterday that i just entered the school for a start of Sec 1. Those memories ,bad or good, i just cant forget .. i had been a long time since i wait for this time to come. My N levels results. I think that it had been confirm that the result will be released this Friday , 18 dec 2009. After getting my results , where should i go ? could my results send me to sec 5 and not ITE. As my aim is to go sec 5 and then poly. I want aLL this just because of TWO reasons.
1. to get gOOd grades and get a gOOd job so that
2. i can give some happiness to my family .
i just want my parents to be happy and proud of me. i dont want anythings else. But then i scared if i couldnt go to sec 5. what if i was sent to ITE.? ARGHH!!
so many question running thru my mind.
anyways last wish from me to aLL my fren out there especiaLLy aishah , dann, ros, diana, syikin, fir , HIM, alep, tini.... I wish aLL the best and no matter what just hope for the best.((:

p/s: gOOdlucks ((:
blogging@1413hrs.

2009-12-09T23:44:00.003+08:00

So , just now i went out with aishah and dann. went to watch "new mOOn" .

the movie was preTTy okay lah. After that, went to have lunch + dinner at KFC. Ate the new "black pepper chicken buddy meal". It was damn superb man..spicy ..

KK change topic. A few more days , results are going to be announced.Damn scared.Kept dreaming of it and him.I dont wish to go ITE. I dont Know why. Just hoping and praying to promote to sec 5 next yr.

p/s: i still thinks that im in love with F_____!!

blogging@2350hrs.

2009-12-05T01:51:00.001+08:00

JUST CHANGED MY SKIN.. IT WAS irrattaiting ..
LINK AND TAG WERE GONE ..
nOW THOSE LINKS WHO ARE MISSING , PLS TAG ME.
BYE FOR NOW!!

2009-11-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

DEAR MY FRIENDS,

I JUST WANTS TO TELL YOU THAT I STILL THINKS THAT I LOVE HIM!!
haish. i dont believe that after get back from sarawak , it changed.
i cant likes him and thinks bout him animore. One reason. He liked someone else.
its my fault for not telling him my feeling towards him at the very beginning .And now i missed the chance . last wed was my first tears when i got to know bout it. first time i cried just because of love. to tell u the truth . actually this is my very first true feeling for someone. BUKAN CINTA MONYET.!!

p/s: just hoping for the best.
blogging@2204hrs.

2009-11-20T16:07:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow , im heading off to Kuching, Sarawak.

Packed aLL my stuffs ad set ready to go.
Not reaLLy looking forward to it actuaLLy. FeeL as it was a one day tour and not a 4 days 3 night field trip. Kk this time round , i need to perform with the rest . Whoah!! I wiLL try my best not to forget the simple steps and make the dance spoil. Wish me aLL the best.

Its been a long time since he last online. Haish . If he is reaLLy the one for me , i wiLL try to be patience and let the time come by itself . Just wish that he was there sending to the airport . Cheyy . Perasan nya aku . hahaHaha . .

p/s: wish he was there.

blogging@1621hrs.

2009-11-16T15:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, i had a great day with my friends.
went out to get things for Sarawak.
at night i was damn tired and went to sleep early..
i have a best dream ever.!!!
hahaha..okay..

kk less than a week more for my friends and i goin to sarawak..its goin to be a hell fun..
but at the end of the sarawak trip, im goin to be confused ..this is because , i think its the only chance to tell him th truth..
but how? i scared all what i thinked will be the opposite ways.

p/s:im talking crap.
blogging@1519hrs.

2009-11-09T09:46:00.002+08:00

Back from singapore!!
1 week at malaysia was awesome eventhough there is a boring days. where we have nothing to do. So away for 1 week , i was terribly missed my damn laptop as without him( refer to the lappy) i could not check my mails.erghh!!!get to play fireworks there(mercun)fuhhpowerss!!!
1 week of thinking of the same thing over and over again.
And i have made up my mind . i will wait and slowly wait for the time to come. Before i got any further ,or in other words , if i really like him ,i would want to be friends first then close friend then i can decide to tell him my true feelings towards him.
But there is a slight problemo . HE WONT EVEN ANSWER ANY OF MY MSGS OR MSN CHATS!!!
tried asking him things or just saying hello.but didnt even replied.my friends talk to him,he replied but me ... erghhh....effing pissed off at times. . but i tell myself that if i badly want him , i must wait and time will come one day by itself.
So today i guess i wanna slack at one place to relax my mind but dont know where to go.

p/s:time will come one day.
blogging@0958hrs.

2009-10-30T01:19:00.002+08:00

wei people ~~
its been almost 3 weeks school had ended for me and the rest for sec 4na and nt.
bored at home ..nothing to do.
Now i know why i couldnt sleep.Coz usually during school holidays, i usually would be on the phone or hanging out with friends and usually sleep at 3am. haha ..Just day dream in the afternoon and suddenly thought of it.
But now i cant hang out anymore . fren had go NS and others had others things to do.
miss them so much lah seeyyy..
so tomorrow going to Jb. and spending there for 1 week..Dont know if i could use the comp.
heehe..CIK, pinjam comp eyh??..hehehe
So KAK ROS, i would like to CLARIFY to u Bout "cant sleep".It had been confirm that it is not because of HIM. but Because of my beloved friends at GOODVIEW..hahaha..

p/s:suddenly felt so relieved and happy today.
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2009-10-29T00:15:00.007+08:00

I cant sleep PeopLe!!!
From last two days . mAybe kept thinking bout him...
everytime i close my eyes, i would think about him .tried to get rid him of my head but i cant

Sudah hampir 10 bulan , aku menyimpan perasaan cinta kepada si
dia . Pada mula, ku cuma anggapnya seperti kawan biasa , Tetapi ,hari demi hari ,perasaan suka mula berputik di dalam hatiku . Jarang ku Berbual dengan si dia kerana kami berlainan kelas dan jarang jumpa . Tapi setiap kali ku berjumpanya semasa ada kelas , aku akan berasa seram sejuk . Entahlah kenapa. Kawanku mula usik ku sehingga hari ini . Tetapi perasaan ini sudah terpendam di dalam tubuhku sehinggakan sukar untuk ku luahkan kepada si dia.Aku segan
dan malu untuk bercakap terus terang bahawa ku mencintainya. Ku takot,jika sesudah dia tahu kebenaran , dia tidak akan berbual dengan ku.Pernah sesekali cuba SMS nya tetapi tidak pernah dia menjawabnya. Tetapi bila kawan ku SMS nya menanya khabar
seperti ku , dia membalas .Apakah makna itu? Pernah sekali kawan ku tanya kenapa tidak mahu SMS ku , Dia berkata "aku rasa lain bila msg
dia"Maksudnya apa?Tetapi pada satu hari nanti, Ku akan memberitahunya hal yang sebenar. Ku harap dia akan faham akan
perasaanku dan tidak akan mengelak dariku.
Luahan ini Ku tujukan kepada seseorang
yang ku cintai.
_____

p/s;i cant go to sleep.
blogging@0027hrs

2009-10-26T16:46:00.003+08:00

My Thoughts and FeeLings

1)I don't wish to let him know that i liked him . But then , I want him to know that i like him .
2)My friends always teased me . Till make my face turned red . But then , is just me that will be overwhelmed by that teasing . Not anyone else . Including Him!
3)I can feel that he is trying to avoid me when i want to start a conversation through MSN or MSG . But then , maybe he is buzy with stuff , does he?
4)I will always think about him . But then , for what i need to think about a friend that i like but i seldom talked to during school hours and even after school hours .
5) I do tell this to some of my friends hoping that it will solve my problem . But then , what can they do ? Tell him how much i cared bout him ? or Maybe ask him to text me . . "NO " , I would tell them . I dont want Him to think that i am desperate for his LoVe!!
6) I just feel that im just wasting my time on this small things . But then , a love needs patience and sacrifice ..
Haish!!! This is what i feel people . . Im just too scared to tell him face to face . .
Why am i a scary cat ?
Why do i have a big body but a small heart ?

p/s: Now , i know that I really do like him and I wont denied it anymore pals
blogging@1705hrs

2009-10-24T15:41:00.002+08:00

WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!
My laptop is back . Now i can do what i want during this three month break from school .
So HARI RAYA has ended .And Now is DEEPAVALI .
So SchooL has ended and now im stuck at home doing nothing . Want to find Job but im scared .
Dunnoe lah . But all i think is work . . Can I work ? Why am I scared ?
Okay . . . Tomorow we are celebrating someone 's birthday. woohoo..
kk . . I think i stop here for now . . Suddenly my mood were gone when i think about someone . .
I think im just in a one - sided love . . Why must happen to me ?
Cant i be like all my friends . . With their loved ones by their side. loving each other. Haish!! dont care arh..
Just wish that my dreams will come true One day.

p/s: i just want what i dreamt and said would come true . .
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2009-10-08T15:47:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE PAPER TO GO...N ITS OVER...!!!
BUT THIS THE TIME WHERE U WILL MISS ALL UR FRIENDS WHICH HAVE BEED FOUR YEARS TOGETHER. AND THIS YR IS THE LAST YR FOR US TO BE AS ONE..
HAHA

IM TALKING CRAP...

P/S:will not be seeing him alr..hope to see him somewhere..((:
BLOGGING@1530HRS

2009-09-24T13:59:00.004+08:00

N Level are Just in two weeks Time!!
So its been awhile since i last post . Its all because of my damn Laptop . Now i cant use my laptop as it brokedown and had not sent for repair yet .. So a lot of things had happened .
First of all, I wanna wish all muslim SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR dan BATIN .
Before raya , i went to geylang a few times . Eventhough its packed , i still like to there.
So back to now . Times flies so fast and i am facing my Major exam(phase 2) in just about two weeks time . Hope to go to sec 5n next year.
So peepooss .... i will not be onlining so frequently from now on . haish ..
*what am i writing man!!???* shit.!!

p/s:really miss him and really wish that he knew that i like him . D:
blogging@1407hrs

2009-09-10T18:40:00.002+08:00

AT LAST 3 PAPERS HAVE FINISHED.
Those three papers are okay but some question a bit tricky.
Next up, science paper and History On 5 october.
i just hope that i will pass and can promote go secondary 5.
So yesterday and today i had maths remedial.was fun but tiring.

So this saturday.Going out with friends.To buy raya shoes and bag.Clothes no need to bought as aunty had give me a lot.Thanks aunty.
So raya is just like in another 1 week.Whoah!!! So fast isn't it.
i felt that puasa is quite short period of time.
okok..i stop here...speaking nosense..

p/s:wanna buy CD songs..
blogging@1847hrs.

2009-09-03T18:12:00.002+08:00

2 MORE WEEKS TO RAYA.
4 MORE DAYS TO "N" LEVEL.
WTH??!!
So just now i had ss supp.was damn sleepy in class. Felt like banging my head on the wall.
Cant believe that my n level are so near.and i am damn scared.Had not been doing good for all subjects.Most of it grade 5.How to go sec 5??tell me??
haish..
So after that went home.help mom bake cookies for raya.
smell great.

P/s:korang nie ade2 aje.
blogging@1816hrs.

2009-08-30T13:07:00.000+08:00

First and for most.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST UMI!!

So yesterday was the best.Went out with friends.
First met ros.then went to bb to wait for aishah and gang.
waited and waited but no sign of them.
so we decided to go to JE and meet the rest first.
after that went to bugis.
to watch Cikgu R. perform.
the dance was quite nice.
after that went to popeye at singapore flyers for break fast.
was damn cool..first time taste the chicken..super duper delicious
headed to geylang after that. waited for bus for 20 min and at last went to esplanade to take train.
haiyah.
Geylang was packed and difficult to walk.we decided to go home..all of them board my father's lorry.and some dropped at bb and gombak.
wow!!pictures are with ikaa..

p/s:aku kan sape..aku sedar lah.
blogging@ 1316hrs

2009-08-22T16:20:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT PUASA DI BULAN RAMADHAN!
Today, its the first day of ramadhan.Iate ramly burger for sahur and drink a cup of plain water.And now my stomach are grumbling.haha.Nvrm.i can wait Left about 3hrs left.
Today, pretty much boring day for me.Like its damn bored as i do not know what to do.
Yesterday went to geylang.SOme of the stall are still being set up and some are selling already.
There are alot of people there.met Istilah,Erdina,and Umi and family.WOW!what a coincidence i can say. Just the first day, we had bought new carpet(carpet buloh) and lights(lampu kelap kelip).
The carpet was damn cheap.At gombak ,it can cost u about $55 but at there,we could get at $28..Doubled the price.Awesome.

p/s:29 more days to Raya!
blogging@1634hrs.

2009-08-21T17:20:00.003+08:00

Okay,i have just finished changing my blog skins. Jyeah!!Weekends has come and now its time for me to have some rest after my Prelims.Tomorrow is the day that all muslims will start their fasting.I hope i could have a full Ramadhan.
So just now, i received two papers.History and Physics.Hsitory Section B and Physics,i passed.
But not without flying colours.Now i scared to get other papers.

p/s:sahur pagi bsok
blogging@1738hrs.

2009-08-20T13:49:00.002+08:00

FINALLY ITS OVER!!
NOW CAN RELAX FOR AWHILE BEFORE N LEVEL!!
So today is our last paper.
went to McD after that.
chit chat and we do laughed a lot especially aishah.
after that meet mom at market.went home with her.
saw someone lah..shit .i wish i was a little later then the person.
haha..

Puasa sudah hampir tiba..
Saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Berpuasa kepada Semua Umat Islam.
Puasa ya jangan tak puasa.^__^..

p/s:stripes shirts
blogging@1354hrs.

2009-08-17T14:06:00.001+08:00

Lately, in school, i seldom talk.i would just keep quiet and behave like a person with no energy.
I dont really understand with myself. Sometimes i felt that im useless.
Argh!!!
OkaY!!now i cant stop thinking about someone.
I dont know why. I should be StUDYING!! and not thinking about other things.
safayafa sufukafa difiafa.
tafapifi difiafa tifidakfak sufukafa.
afakufu cufumafa peferafasanfan.
haha new language i wrote.LOLx

p/s:perasan sungguh!
blogging@1415hrs.

2009-08-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

Two days of prelim are done.the papers are okay and doable.
So...HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO EVERYONE!!
Last sunday the whole day at east coast park.
picnic till night time.

haha..They already knew who i liked.
what to do.they pester me to do it.
at first they were wrong.haha..
i laughed at them.
and now they knew who's the person..
korg!!jgn bilang orang tao.
^^..

stop here for now..want to continue revising for tomorrow papers.
see ya..

p/s:akusayangkamu.
blogging@2200hrs.

2009-08-07T18:20:00.002+08:00

The first time I saw you,I started to like you.
Then as time goes by,my feelings for you have faded.
As i knew i wont be the one for you and maybe there isnt a place for me in your heart.
But this year,it had started all over again.
My feelings for you has come back.
Sometimes we chat using all "those" words, makes me like you even more.
But i guess not anymore now.No more chats, seldom talk to you nowadays.
I dont think i can stop lying to myself and my friends that i like you.
But i could not continue to like you. It just make me feel hopeless.
Just like i am clapping one hand. Is like i am desperate for your love.
But i am not. I know this is not the right time for me to fell in love but i cant help it.
Like everyone else. They will surely like someone in their lives.I think its true what my heart says.i will not have a place in Your Heart.He will surely has a girl on his own.And if yes,i hope you two will be happy in future.

AKU YANG PERASAN!AKU SAHAJA YANG TERTUNGGU-TUNGGU KAN DIA.
SUDAHLAH ERA NATASHA BTE MOHD SHAH!DIA TK SUKE KAW!JANGAN PERASAN LAH.PERGILAH TENGOK CERMIN TUH SIKIT!SEDARLAH DIRI KAW TUH!!
GET YOURSELF A LIFE AND STOP BOTHERING OTHERS.

P/s:crying inside my heart.
blogging@1817hrs.

2009-08-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

WAHHH!!wHAt a KECOHRABLE AND GEREkSS fAMILieS I got.
cuZZ, MakCik, PakciK, Sistaz ,BrotheR, Nieces,NePhews and many More are damn CooL.
actually at first was damn Boring!
but as the day get darker,It seem to chaNge with takiNg picture, playing with my most laughing cuzzs.
ate a lot food..
what a day.
btw tomorrow "HAPPY PEOPLE" going swimming with makciKs,Pakciks,Cuzz,
at dunnoe where.
cant wait for it.
((:

p/s:sayasayangkamu!
blogging@2310hrs

2009-07-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

FIRST EVENING CLASS THAT I WENT TODAY.
FUN AND FOCUSED.
AFTER THAT BECOME HAPPY PEOPLE WHEN LAZYNESS COME TO MY MIND
BTW ITS BEEN SOMETIME WHEN THE MOVIE I WANTED TO WATCH BADLY RELEASED.
YET,STILL I HAVENT GET A CHANCE TO WATCH IT.HAISH..
WHEN CAN I GET TO WATCHED?
BTW TOMORROW IS MT ORAL.
DAMN NERVOUS.

PS:PLEASE SET A DATE TO WATCH IT!!
BLOGGING@2247HRS

2009-07-25T16:46:00.003+08:00

" JGN PANDANG BELAKANG CONGKAK"is now on cinema.
-Its about a combination of congkak and jangan pandang belakang.
-its a form of horror + comedy + romance
-Cat Farish, Lisa Surihani, Mazlan Ahmad, Piee, Shaheizy Sam is the actors and actress
-was released on 4 jun but in singapore its on the 22 july.
-tells the story of three youths who each received a letter from the late Pak Sudir inviting them to his house.
-Upon arrival, they met up with Pak Sudir's helper Mustika and discovered that he was their grandfather and the three of them have the potential to inherit all of his belongings,
-but under strict circumstances.
-They would have to stay at his house for three days straight without touching anything, especially an old congkak.
-On the first night itself, strange things begin to happen.
-OMG!!i am so going to watch it.
-but when?
wei cpt arh..aku tunggu kaw free..
Cpt txt aku..
mase tuh aku tk free skrg kaw lah plak.
haha..
kk gtg..

p/s: txt me if u are free.Okays((:
blogging@1658hrs

2009-07-21T22:19:00.002+08:00

HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY!!
Just now was the best day ever.
i wore a cheongsum top for the first time.
Took a lots of photos .
but u know what?the weather is killing me.
its damn warm.and i was wearing a "good absorber of heat"..KK i dont want to blog to long.
To see the pics, pls go to my facebook.
tata..

p/s:so going to watch that movie.
blogging@2224hrs.